You know how you're about to be productive and then you remember everything is fucking pointless and there's no reason in even staying alive and so you just lie there and waste the rest of your day,,, very that
It's getting harder to pretend everything is okay. People start to notice the bags under your eyes and that you're not eating properly and that you never really laugh or smile for real anymore. You tell them you're okay, but you can't even look them in the eye as you say it. You're not okay. You're so not okay and you're just so tired of pretending.
broken thoughts | 12am
People with depression have something very valuable to teach us... how to live when it doesn't ever feel good.
— Kay Warren
“And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and that is something nobody ever tells you when you are young.”
~ Unknown
It always shocked me when I realized that I wasn’t the only person in the world who thought and felt such strange and awful things.
— John Green, Looking for Alaska
When you came into my life, I knew everything was going to change. The way I see, hear, feel, eat, sleep. Every little thing matters when it comes to you..just to touch you, see you, feel you, hear your heart beat while i lay on your chest. Hearing you breathe calms evey part of me. You are my personal drug of choice. Looking in your eyes sends shivers all down my spine. You feel like home and I never want to move.
